Embracing my Awesomeness (;

It has been awhile since my last post. The few post below this post are from bby. Gyeah I know, so pathetic of me. Even my tumblr my gf update. That goes to show how lazy I am. Very.

Alot has been happening and Ive not been updating. I just dont have the mood nor the juice to update everyday. Plus, I’ve got a job. Gyeah. Don’t ask what job or whatever. If you see me, then you see me. That will be the only time that I will be wearing THAT smart. Hehs.

Btw, bby bought for me a pair of shoes. Gyeah. Its in pink colour~. My favourite~! Thank you for the shoes bbygirl. (: Ok off to serious shit. ~

I have no idea why this things happen. I didnt see it coming. I’ve done nothing to cause any of this to happen. I might have glitched here and there, but I have realised it. Other than that, why should I receive doubt from you? What have I ever done to receive such negative thoughts/feelings from you? I’ve been the best. You said it yourself. But why does 8 going 9 months of proving to you that I’m the best fade overnight? Stop having assumptions and insecurities. I’ve been there for you for the first few months, going through rough shits. So many promises, so many words, but I’m only hanging on to hope. We can be so happy, so cheerful, so perfect today. But down, restless, so very wrong the next. Why? What happened to yesterdays smiles? What happened to yesterdays laughter? What happened to yesterdays moments? What happened to the promises? What exactly happened? Tell me. Stop saying that you’re fine and then be moody everytime we text. You always say that I don’t understand you. How to when you tell me nothing at all? You always pick out my mistakes, faults and flaws. While I close my eyes to almost everything you do. I dont expect you to be your best. I just want you to be yourself and love me, trust me, and see me as someone you wouldnt want to lose like you used to.

You don’t know who to turn to? What am I? Am I invincible or something? I still exist, I’m not dead.